A River's water of thoughts

This is a giant spoiler for Naruto 431

( SPOILER )

*seethes in fury*

I am so freaking happy.

AMATSUKI got updated on onemanga!! I've been waiting ages for the new chapies. I love this series, it's published in ZeroSum so you know it's slashworthy and kickass in plot, drama, and action sequences! This is one serious mind-fuck of a story. I still don't know if the past is actually in the past or...well you find out later on.

Oh and D.Grayman, Naruto, Bleach, and Eyeshield21 have been updated.
All I need is Vampire Knights and 7 Ghosts and I will fan-fucking-tastically happy even though we have a potential monster hurricane coming to wipe out my house.

See, I can be happy and not all depressy...

So I'm happy for many reason, not just about certain Olypmic results, but also because there is a new chapter of Katekyo Hitman Reborn! and Skip Beat out. YAY. I'm addicted to these manga, Skip Beat, I've been a fan for five years? Katekyo Hitman Reborn!, I fell in love after the first one hundred nutso chapters and real plot started to happen. Not to mention the slash potential between Tsuna, Hibari, and Mukuro (who shares a body with a female!...for the moment until his real body is released, so it's technically gender bendery as well).

Also, that Australian 10m diver, who seems to be the only openly gay athlete at the Olympics? I'm now a fan of his. I'm pissed at NBC, sure they didn't mention he was gay, but they could have at least mentioned his family and partner, who were in the stands watching, or at least panned the camera over and commented on who they were, especially after he won gold and stole China's perfect 8 for 8 in diving gold away from them. Nope NBC didn't, they censored it, not one comment or camera pan on his family. I'm pissed.

Oh and my *headdesky* moment is because I'm currently writing that bbtp ficy and it reminds me why I hate writing. I can do introspective like nobody's business, at least I think so, but dialogue I fall to pits on. Mainly because I'm too busy running the conversation in my mind and writing it out to really put a sentence attached to the words to make it more than just a script.

I totally suck at that. I also suck on writing insults. My own vocabulary is like that of a drunken slurring sailor and so witty insults that would make Snape proud are beyond my reach... It makes me sad.

I wonder if I should post this for the porn challenge.

I'm still writing it, haven't got to the porn yet, and it has a horror vibe to it.

I just realized I have a major flaw in my writing.

bbtp_challenge happens in about ten days and I had to contribute. Every idea I come up with becomes waaaaaay longer than just a short one-shot. I keep going into epic story-lines. So I decided to dig up an old work I planned during the lj fiasco last year. I opened it up and shook my head in dismay.

I realized then that all of my fics share a common flaw. I'm writing scenes like a script writer. Because I like to 'hide' who the character is when I first write my intro scenes, I make major mistakes in grammar. This is probably why leianora, my dear frustrated emergency beta who went through pages of my fic for phoenix_flies, asked me point out if English was my first language. *

My main problem in writing stories is that I visualize them. I have a photographic mind, mind not memory. ;d I tend to imagine things first in my mind like a photographer imaging a picture, or more correctly, a director imaging a scene for a movie or show. I walk myself through the scene as if I am watching a movie. I fast forward to points in the plot and rewind as well as I slow it down in my mind to write out the specifics of the plot and dialogue.

It is because of this that it becomes horribly difficult for me to write what I am seeing from the different perspective of it happening to the character. How can I convey what I am seeing as a third person imagining the scenes and as the character in which the scene is happening to?

I'm not sure how to fix this. Should I, when I'm trying to do this, write in first person? I know I shouldn't switch back and forth because first and third person, because I already got into trouble with that with my vday fic Chocolate & Raspberries, in which the mod sent it back to me and I had an emergency beta totally rail my ass and I practically re-wrote the entire ficy when I was done with it.

This problem is also why I plan to completely re-write my absolutely horrible, Descent into the Debauchery of Darkness two-shot ficy... It's also why I've been vastly reluctant to join any fests and even write...

*sighs*

Anyone got any advice?
I would like to give Minxie some porn on bbtp day. :D

I've been thinking about this, really deeply, and I don't think I'll be able to participate in any fests this semester...er year.

I'm just starting grad school and on top of that I have a real problem with fest participation. I can't write one-shots. Just about every fest I've been in since the beginning of this year, I've gone over the time-limit and word limit.

Another reason that I am planning on not participating is that I have several planned stories in my mind that are possibly near novel length and I plan on writing them sometime...in my life.

These are major plot lines that I keep running through out my head before I go to sleep, planning them out, adding things, subtracting.

I've only got one in out-line form (just the beginning stages), it's the Werewolf one, the others are still only planned out (semi) in my mind. The paranormal one, that I've been working on off and on for over two years, is still un-written.

I really need to plan these out, in written form.

Maybe I should write my own Naruto/Harry Potter cross-over fic.

Good lord, I've been digging through ff.net and there are so few and many more few are SasuNaru. I had found one that I was liking except they brought in a few too many of my pet peeves.

WARNING I'M SPOILING CURRENT NARUTO CHAPTERS RUNNING IN JAPAN!

( You've been warned, so don't bitch to me )

Rant over...

It just pisses me off so much.

Another thing that pisses me off, there is more Naruto fanfiction based in AU, 'real-world' universes, than in the Shinobi one. I want to read Sasuke's thoughts on discovering how he plans on rescuing Naruto from the Akatsuki, which is why he is using Madara and Akatsuki!

I think I have crushed a teenaged girls writing dreams...

I was on fanfiction.net (yes I know) and there was this interesting summary that caught my eye in the Naruto Sasuke/Naruto area. It's about Sakura, Sasuke, and Naruto being hired not by Dumbledore to protect Harry, but by Lucius Malfoy to capture Harry for the ritual in GOF. Sounds like a great idea, plot wise.

Unfortunately....It's kinda really bad.
In fact, I'm only sticking around to read it, because I want to see where the plot is going to go.

So...I debated on giving a review for the story. Usually I just add the writer to my author alert list and just read the horrible thing through (unless it gets so horrible I can't stand it anymore).

It's pretty harsh. Like, really really harsh, more harsh than leianora, my emergency phoenix_flies fest beta, questioning if English was my first language harsh (but she was right to question it...I have major problems in the story and I can take it).

You can read it here if you dare...

I just realized I forgot to address the SPaG errors and how short each chapter is too... Never mind, my own punctuation problems in the review.

*head desk* commas shall always be my Achilles heel in writing.

I'm going to go find me some better SasuNaru going to Hogwarts stories.

That poor poor poor kid...

Maybe next time I should make up a list and go through each issue one at a time? But I thought it might be too harsh so I just went with what was bugging me the most.

Which leads me to a question, what is the best way to tell a budding writer that they do not more or less fail at writing but that it is on a juvenile level (read: grade school level)? Basically how much concrit can you give a writer without breaking their spirit?

First off, does any here know what a Houdini is in the Cashier world? One of my co-workers had it happen to him last week.

We also had a really bad customer price check for footwear. This is what happened. A group of people, related, came up to pay for shoes (a pair of $90 fancy smancy shoes) and when it rang up with it's original and correct price, they threw a shit fit the likes of which haven't been seen before. Not even my redneck bb gun guy compares. It's a shame this happened during my lunch hour.

They claimed that the shoes were supposed to be half off. In the insuing madness that occured they accused the footwear guy of switch signs/shoes on them and insulted over four different employees including two managers. In the end, they got their half-off price.

The truth of the situation? They did it. Alan was the assist. manager for Rent-a-center and they were previous customers of his that he had to recall their furniture. So he knows that they did it and that the shit fit they caused was all for getting attention and getting the price they wanted.

Today, I had a semi good day. It was my first day back since my weekday weekend. I went to bed at 11pm and finally conked out in the morning (this damn Drarry story keeps running through my head (the cold case scenario one)). I had to wake up early because I had to go to the eye doctor. The good news?

My prescription barely changed at all! My eyes are healthy too. No problems what-so-ever except for being near-sighted which is caused by being predisposed to it and my extensive reading as a child. I don't need new lens or frames so my non-insurance ass only had to pay for the exam, 59 bucks, oh and he got my glasses fixed. That's right, after two years of having a broken off nose piece and an old stained one, I got new ones.

My vision is practically perfectly clear now that I finally have my eyes looking the right area. ;D

In fact, tonight on my drive back from work (I was closing tonight (I actually forced my ass through my shift since I was feeling horrible), I could actually see a stopped truck's flashing lights from a half-mile or mile away. It was a beautiful night's drive too. The full moon in the air with light clouds, shining down on the ground. Beautiful, I really wish I had a digital camera/video camera. Maybe my next pay check or two.

Btw, in relating to the title of my post, I'm musing on something. Since I'm working about to (hopefully) start school again, I'm going to run low on time to write. In fact, I'm bitching about how little time I have to READ!

So I got a question, I have several stories in my mind, that I plan to write out. Would ya'll perfer the story to be fully plotted out, written, beta'd and complete before I post it or would a WIP with a revision when complete work?

I'm only asking cause I have one nearly complete story, my Phoenix Flies fic that I didn't have time to finish. It needs to be edited (by me) then finished, and then beta'd. Since it's nearly done and is plot related to the books, I was going to wait until I finished it to put it up.

But, my other one's are rewrites of the books and are not plot heavy based on the books. In fact, several canon aspects that are major parts of the plots will be changed. Dropping a stone into a pond will cause ripples with cause and effect results and the past will be rewritten. ;D

Also, for you working fandom fiends, how the hell can you work full-time/part-time and still have time to read and write for fandom?

Harry Potter devotees put wizard tales to music
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POTOSI, Mo. - Jen Leffler first escaped into the world of Harry Potter as an adolescent in suburban Chicago. A decade later, the love affair continues. Only now, it means taking road trips to concerts across the country.